
beep boop, my life.

best friends since second grade.
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my life



my dash understands my life.
addicted.
—Today is one of those days that I’m happy the be alive.
The air might be cold, and my fingers might be freezing, but it’s beautiful outside.
I love spending my days in practice rooms at the Hartt school, listening to the talented voices, and amazing musicians that are my friends.
I love long carrides listening to Dan Deacon and Crystal Castles,
driving through suburban neighborhoods and long windy roads.
I smile because I am not alone.
I can’t believe I ever left this place thinking it wasn’t right for me,
when now I can’t even begin to think of how different my life would be without it.
It seems I spend too much of my time looking for someone special to complete me and make me happy.
When I have everything I need right in front of me.
I go crazy with the thought that the man I find myself pining over is 3000 miles away,
But I’m amazed that he wants so desperately to make this work.
I’m glad I’ve found who my true friends are.
I’ve left so much and anger and hate and sadness behind me.
I laugh at the thought that I used to let other people dictate my life.
I know who I am now.
I am an artist.
I am a photographer.
I am an explorer.
I am alive and free.
I am confident.
And most importantly, I am me.
There are so many memories bouncing around in my head that it’s hard to pick just one.
I remember sliding on ice down my private way in my brothers shoes with a good friend of mine.
I remember the condo in concord, and how he held me close and I embraced it even though I didn’t love him back.
I remember meeting you at the gas station, and the first night we ever spent together.
I remember being late for work, class, and trains. All on account of different men.
I remember the plastic skunks we put in the front lawn for my fathers 40th birthday on Flynn Crescent.
I remember spending hours in the sand at the cottage in Canada.
I remember watching the squirrels eat acorns on our back porch when I was maybe 3.
I remember a lot of things. Memories are dear, and thankfully I tend to remember every detail.
I will never be able to pick a favourite.
Love is:
- Waking up with a smile on your face.
- Uncontrollable butterflies.
- Feeling sure about everything, and nothing at the same time.
- Worth risking everything.
- The feeling of being alive.
- Pure happiness.
- Irresistible.
Love makes you want to live. Loves breaks down your walls, it makes you want to be someone. Love is the greatest feeling on earth.
Love is beautiful.
This is